Wednesday, January 21, 2009


(By FERNANDO ALAYZA MUJICA, Peruvian psychoanalyst).
It is, surely, the “thirst of infinite”, about which the author of this book talks us, the wire that allows us to understand how come, from the beginnings of his existence, the passage by his adolescence and his arrival to the present of his adult life, to have crossed and surely not to have finished his permanent, consistent, doubtful, contradictory, ambivalent, affirmative and critical search, looking for explaining to himself as to all we, his friends and readers of this book, his personal and particular way to have metabolized and understood, to today, his vital experience.
Then, this text summarized multiple levels of experience of a human being who, as a vital person, psychiatrist, psychoanalyst, a believing in God being, is mainly a human being in all its dimension.
It is not accidental either that Felix emphasizes in its book -in its vital experience- what he denominates a Holistic Spirituality. On the contrary, the interlacing of the very diverse planes of the vital experience at diverse chronological and emotional moments, conform a multiple series of mixtures that, in a while –by means of personal evolution and mental growth-, raises to us as a tight synthesis of the history of how all this happened…
Or, at least, of what it is possible to put in black and white in paper.
I say this because, surely Felix knows it, lamentably everything cannot completely be poured to the writing, the word, the gesture or the symbol: thus, this we call “spiritual”, “existential zone”, is outlined by the word, the gestures, the writing and the symbols… but not totally translated… never totally expressed what in more deep of the being it has been developed, evolving and modifying throughout the vicissitudes of ours developing in the Universe.
And this is another one of the great merits of this text: in the writing, he pours himself more by means of some kind of an intuitive existential comprehension which is beyond the same text, that is within the text but is communicated more distantly and nearly than in the thickness of the paper marked by the ink, in the words.
There is something “guessed and felt” and it have much to do with an always present nonverbal communication in the text… Independently of so many whichever famous and recognized personages it mentions, independently of the sophisticated degree of gnoseologic and theoretical elaboration we discern, independently of so many other merits that text, as chapter to chapter edition, implies and beyond the high interest and curiosity that their expositions provoke, one feels that the author not only has written what has thought, experimented and vivenced but also that Felix -like in all the texts that I know him and in all the conversations that during so many years we have had and we will continue having-, he warmly tears himself in the sequence of the chapters plenty of coherently ordered and sequenced knowledge; they conform a “body” of thoughts and feelings that totally maintain to the intuitions and affirmations of the writer.
Its referring theoreticians -psychoanalytic, philosophical, quantum physics, esoteric-, they are as important as the referring ones to the interpersonal relations that, so far, were intensely lived by Felix in his life. And it seems most important to me because he puts in a same level these great thinkers and these human beings with those who he shared true experiences of love, enjoyment, and for that reason, of transcendental and universal mutual knowledge.
Ever since I began to read the book until the very end, it went and came in me the thought of Donald W. Winnicott - distinguished British psychoanalyst when, affirming the existence of an internal, subjective and unconscious world and another one, an external world, beyond our corporality, he emphasized emphatically that human being lives permanently in an intermediate space that, conjugating both, denominated “the space of the cultural experience”, as the space of the creativity in the human experience.
I feel that Felix’s book comes from there, from the deeper of his unconscious life, to the most distant of his conscious life. Conjugating years of his intellectual, existential and human tasks.
With his book, Felix has made us a great gift that I feel plenty of brotherly and solidarity towards all we, his brethren human beings.
He has given us his multiple and complex experience. He offers us it in order to using it, most of all, in order that his restlessness can be metabolized and used in our daily life by all we.
Felix, thousands of thanks for your book and thousand of thanks for you.
Fernando Alayza Mujica.

Dear beloved daddy, here you go: my first perceptions of your book…
I began reading it without stopping by several hours and have had to stop because the real life summons me, but this first part already is letting much to say…
Your book is, for me, a proposal that tries to integrate the being in a “whole”. The communion of the body and the spirit, the mind and the soul, the visible and the invisible, science and faith that, although for almost everybody is something antagonistic, are part of a unit that is summoned through the loving presence of God as you yourself you refer.
I feel in your lines a moderation and a calm derived from the freedom you have found through knowledge, absent of all fanaticism that distorts all, free of those hateful fanaticisms in which, as you relate, sometimes you were immersed and that you, at any cost, could leave thanks to the infinite love of God, the tenacious investigation and constant search through prayer and meditation, search that today, leads you to offer us this balance, to me perfect, between Faith and Science; sources both of a single unit that is God.
I have been moved to tears by the sensitivity unfolded since the beginning of the book, imagining to my young father, astonished watching the stars in the firmament and asking himself not only for the immensity of the Universe but for the amazing human being.
This adventure written in 432 pages is, as I said sometimes to you, dangerous but so brave… I know that you know that you will not find in all people, the understanding and the acceptance for your expositions, although you have gone ahead to this possibility segmenting somehow to the reading public and determining “who is for and who is not for this book”, which seems healthful to me.
You know what? I do not know why, reading you, I evoked a class of Physics in high school in where they taught to me the scientific method and the formulation of hypothesis for the verification of such-and-such fact that would have to be proven. This book is for me, the “scientific method of the spirituality of being” if therefore it is possible to be called so. The explanation of everything through Science, Quantum Physics and the human spirit related of insurmountable and absolute way to God that, although cannot be seen, it is verified to each step and it guarantees in all the reflections and clinical arguments not only of doctors but in the experiences that you, as a Psychoanalyst and a untiring seeking human being of the truth of the being, you propose.
All your scientific understandings of Psychoanalysis and Quantum Physics, as you refer framed in the Spirituality can be, let me tell you, a probable misunderstood and no digestible product. I think about some people saying: “And… how you can digest this as one eats it?” Then you have been able to make it perfectly digestible.
This digestible word brings to memory a conversation with a friend to whom I commented that I went to Psychotherapy, and I am in Psychoanalysis. She asked to me: “what is that of Psychoanalysis”? I did not have a predetermined concept, only what I have had as my own experience as a patient of Psychoanalysis in these years, which puts to me somehow in one of the segments of people for your book is for. All that was, surely, besides of my own interests and search of answers to so many questions.
In order to summarize I answered to my friend with the first what flowed in me, which, although is a little strong and not very pleasant, I am going to tell it such as I told her: I said her that for me, Psychoanalysis has been a laxative powerful enema of soul, that makes you vomit all your interior… a unique opportunity to throw out all “ the crude” experiences that we ate throughout life, having the wonderful opportunity to return us to eat all those experiences but either digested, without which these cause that enormous indigestion to which they leads us, yes or yes, at some moment in what it can make burst the soul and the body and leave us in madness.

Instead, one can remaining it as a part of that necessary hardware, which feds itself of all good and all bad things that happens to us.

I relate all this to you because your book accompanies to me in this experience of having my way to reality, but taken of the hand of God. Small detail, isn’t? Exactly the wonderful ingredient, is Him, the essential salt of life that would have to be the engine of those who are in this search of inner peace and the inner maturity, a truth that is impossible not to accept, to feel, to breathe. Many of we let ourselves convince by “demonstrable” scientific proposals, loosing the knowledge that, is from God from where depart our essence and that Him would have to become the center of all our experiences.
The content of the book breaks the paradigms including before the “formality” of the own Psychoanalysis when integrating the Christian Spirituality to the process of the inner knowledge.
I am not a scholar in Holistic nor scientists subjects… I am, as they would say, a simple mortal being with a strong desire to know, to grow and to learn. What I know is what it does matter: when you found a root of which to take hold to explore and to open the mind to the understanding, everything is possible. Your book offers that strong root. Now I know that it will safely grow in many of the hearts of those who read to you, stimulating to us to go beyond visible, touchable and the merely understandable, exploring and accepting… accepting us.
I love you a very lot and thanks again to you: Your “Paqueta”.

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